I told the people around me
that I was feeling very lonely
So they picked me up
and cut me a cake
then left me to feed on my misery .
No one believes that I am sad
maybe cause of the way I act
Around the people that I have known
Because they knew me once so
and how jolly I used to be
before I pretended to drown in my misery.
I laugh at my friend's joke
and cry tears of laughter
at her silly wits, brain near the moon.
I talk to her all day long
but at night she goes along
In the darkness, like me.
Out of all the people that had told me that they were there for me
She is the only one who smiles at me
Maybe that's why it didn't matter
that the only friend I have
is the mirror by the nightstand
Because my friends told me, I am not alone.
I wave at my sister and she waves back at me
She looks so beautiful in the sunlight, unlike me
Her smile is too bright for me
too bright for a reason alone
I love talking to her, she's the only person who listens to me.
Out of all the people who had said they loved me, she is the only one who's here for me.
Every time I cry, she cries too
and when I shake, it's like she's shaking too.
I love my sister cause she checks up on me
When I look for her, I see her face looking for me too.
A frog distorted my view once
as it swam on the lake
and splashed the water, splashed away her memories.
Even though me and my sister are the same
She still has more beauty and fame
My reflection on water is the only sister I have.
Because my sisters told me, I am not alone.
I laugh as I run to catch the ball flying past me
like the wind that cannot be tamed
my happiness has no boundaries
I don't catch the sun
but I catch the look on my brother's face
as he grins from ear to ear
Joyous at his victory.
I love my brother, he always has time for me
When I text him, he never fails to text me back
I didn't realise that I had been sitting on the park bench
covered in sweat and tears
staring the the two siblings ahead, full of happiness and content
too busy playing to care
It didn't matter to me, that the only time I was happy
Was when I imagined myself free
Free with my friends, as close as brothers I dare to dream
I imagined myself in place of others'
and tried to imagine myself happy
Happy as everyone seems to be
My only brother is in my mind
Because my brother told me, I am not lonely
My best friend is quiet
He doesn't like to talk
He's more into listening than speaking
and into sitting than walking.
He is the only person who loves me
The only friend I have
when i'm sad, he gives me company
he's all I see
even when it's snowy
Maybe that's why it didn't matter
that my best friend was a pebble
A pebble I had found in my backyard .
At the end there was no one there for me
except my pebble, my best friend forever to be.
Because my best friend told me, I am not alone.
A stranger came to me
She knew I was sick
so she hugged me, along with a kiss
She said that she was sick too
looked awfully bad
So I offered her my help, some tea and maybe even some snacks.
She smiled as I took the pill, to help me cure my disease
I was her first priority, I was very happy.
She nodded for me to continue and so I did
And took another pill, for my only friend.
Then I waved at the fridge and took one for her, smiled at the door and laughed at the mat.
I knew they were in pain, so I look a pill for each
Each of my friends
who had been there.
My only friends
my trusty lamp and dusty frame, beautiful books and busty chairs.
We all laughed as I took the pills which I knew would help them too
For, they had tried to cure mine, it was my duty to cure theirs.
All they had done was listen to me
but that was the best gift to be
Maybe i'll find friends finally
who will love me unconditionally
Maybe my cruelty made me lonely
My jealousy of the dead
That the dead get more love
than me
Even though I am dead as well, dead from the inside
The ones inside their coffins, have it more easy
I am dead too, now listen to me
I wish to die, to stop the loneliness
So that i can finally get the love I crave
The happiness, the peace, it's all buried beneath me
All I need to do is decay
so that my friends finally appreciate me
and i'll finally get love and hope and prosperity.
-Nikki Gautam
that I was feeling very lonely
So they picked me up
and cut me a cake
then left me to feed on my misery .
No one believes that I am sad
maybe cause of the way I act
Around the people that I have known
Because they knew me once so
and how jolly I used to be
before I pretended to drown in my misery.
I laugh at my friend's joke
and cry tears of laughter
at her silly wits, brain near the moon.
I talk to her all day long
but at night she goes along
In the darkness, like me.
Out of all the people that had told me that they were there for me
She is the only one who smiles at me
Maybe that's why it didn't matter
that the only friend I have
is the mirror by the nightstand
Because my friends told me, I am not alone.
I wave at my sister and she waves back at me
She looks so beautiful in the sunlight, unlike me
Her smile is too bright for me
too bright for a reason alone
I love talking to her, she's the only person who listens to me.
Out of all the people who had said they loved me, she is the only one who's here for me.
Every time I cry, she cries too
and when I shake, it's like she's shaking too.
I love my sister cause she checks up on me
When I look for her, I see her face looking for me too.
A frog distorted my view once
as it swam on the lake
and splashed the water, splashed away her memories.
Even though me and my sister are the same
She still has more beauty and fame
My reflection on water is the only sister I have.
Because my sisters told me, I am not alone.
I laugh as I run to catch the ball flying past me
like the wind that cannot be tamed
my happiness has no boundaries
I don't catch the sun
but I catch the look on my brother's face
as he grins from ear to ear
Joyous at his victory.
I love my brother, he always has time for me
When I text him, he never fails to text me back
I didn't realise that I had been sitting on the park bench
covered in sweat and tears
staring the the two siblings ahead, full of happiness and content
too busy playing to care
It didn't matter to me, that the only time I was happy
Was when I imagined myself free
Free with my friends, as close as brothers I dare to dream
I imagined myself in place of others'
and tried to imagine myself happy
Happy as everyone seems to be
My only brother is in my mind
Because my brother told me, I am not lonely
My best friend is quiet
He doesn't like to talk
He's more into listening than speaking
and into sitting than walking.
He is the only person who loves me
The only friend I have
when i'm sad, he gives me company
he's all I see
even when it's snowy
Maybe that's why it didn't matter
that my best friend was a pebble
A pebble I had found in my backyard .
At the end there was no one there for me
except my pebble, my best friend forever to be.
Because my best friend told me, I am not alone.
A stranger came to me
She knew I was sick
so she hugged me, along with a kiss
She said that she was sick too
looked awfully bad
So I offered her my help, some tea and maybe even some snacks.
She smiled as I took the pill, to help me cure my disease
I was her first priority, I was very happy.
She nodded for me to continue and so I did
And took another pill, for my only friend.
Then I waved at the fridge and took one for her, smiled at the door and laughed at the mat.
I knew they were in pain, so I look a pill for each
Each of my friends
who had been there.
My only friends
my trusty lamp and dusty frame, beautiful books and busty chairs.
We all laughed as I took the pills which I knew would help them too
For, they had tried to cure mine, it was my duty to cure theirs.
All they had done was listen to me
but that was the best gift to be
Maybe i'll find friends finally
who will love me unconditionally
Maybe my cruelty made me lonely
My jealousy of the dead
That the dead get more love
than me
Even though I am dead as well, dead from the inside
The ones inside their coffins, have it more easy
I am dead too, now listen to me
I wish to die, to stop the loneliness
So that i can finally get the love I crave
The happiness, the peace, it's all buried beneath me
All I need to do is decay
so that my friends finally appreciate me
and i'll finally get love and hope and prosperity.
-Nikki Gautam
