ever since.

Since you left my colours don't have clothes and food doesn't approve of tongue
the world has shunned me out
and I have too with distaste
the wind has needles and the needles they pierce my skin
they come at me, it hurts when I think
they whisper, they tell me different kinds of things
like the fact that you're not coming back
dishes left unwashed at the sink

I look in the mirror
the only person who hadn't left
a window to a different world
a bottle of champagne left unpaid at the check
I relied on her, didn't dare to look
she's supposed to be there, no matter how much time I took

but there's someone else there
I don't recognize who
it's not looking at me
it's too disgusted to see
its skin is the colour of my thoughts
an image too dark, a scene uncanny

it looks different
it looks kind of familiar
her face and life betrayed
she has a lot of scars
an unacceptable past
I know her
I can finally see
she's my reflection, I couldn't lie
since you left
it hasn't looked me in the eye.




-nn