Hidden Misery

They'll all burn in hell
for the things that they've done
And I'll be there to welcome them
With arms wide open
A grin fixated on my face
As I introduce them
To my life
To my mind
To hell
And only then will they realise
That the things I've faced
But simply didn't show
Were not for any other purpose
But to have solace.
But they'll only realise my hell
When they themselves go into it's depth like I did
And see my world
Like the way it is and not
The way I made it seem
They'll be shocked I'm sure
For they never knew
What I was going through
And what did they do
They laughed at me
And told me it wasn't real
While my demons ate me from within
And laughed along with them
But now their eyes have seen
The true beauty of my creation
Something that no one else but myself had seen
My world
My life
My own hell
Burn and feel the pain along with me
And spend your days being tortured like I am
And wish to die beside me
For only then you'll understand that death
Is the only way to escape this hell
This pain, this torture
And now that you have finally seen my sunrise
Hear the laughs directed towards you
When once it was directed towards me.
You never knew, don't act like you did
Only when you see my world and my needs
Will you realise the things that I do everyday just to breathe
Laugh at me now, call me names
For they do not matter
Cause those names are the type of music
I listen to
On my special days in hell.


-Nikki Gautam