Chinese Doll

I'm as empty as can be
made without love nor gratitude of life
as similar to the others I presume to be
made without specialty
a familiar face
to the loved towards the unloved
  Unknown to the maker
As far as I know
I am alone
for I am just another doll that
the poor toy maker made, out of pressure
Pressure to survive and live on
Pressure by his job
using the same clay
and the same colours
that his old, wicked eyes could see
each time at random
to decorate my useless life.
  I am useless as can be
and I have told you already
a sincere sorry from the side of the clay
but in my offence you shall not speak
after you find out that I do have no work
rather than to repeat everything I say
Repeat like an echo
something that forms in an empty room
I repeat as an echo for I am empty
I am empty from within
my heart does not beat, for I am heartless
Don't hate me yet
I am already full of self hate and I require no more of your help
Let me tell you, I am happy
because that's the only thing that makes me full
Self hate makes the emptiness disappear
I am as  whole as an empty Chinese Doll.

- Nikki Gautam